Here I sit in the wee hours of the morning at the
computer. I was awakened in the dead of
night with this Hero story going through my head, knowing I have to write it
now. There is only one other person alive who knows this story besides myself.
The Hero and I were deeply in love. We had our lives planned
out. I was on the brink of becoming a Registered Nurse with a degree and he was
attending school to finish his degree in Business and working at the same
time. A dilemma came into our well
planned out future, or so we thought. I
was pregnant. We talked with our
enlightened friends about this and they were adamant that we should have an
abortion, that it (they didn't use the word child) would ruin our careers and
future. I will digress here and remind you,
the Hero was agnostic; I was the only believer in Christ in the group.
I found myself in the middle of our queen size bed hugging
myself, crying and praying while the Hero went to talk with a friend who was a
nurse to find out where to go to have an abortion. This was before Planned Parenthood. I did not want this, but the peer pressure
was so great, I did not feel the strength to go against so many who were
positive this was right. I reached out
to the only understanding friend I could.
I prayed to Christ to not let this happen. He had the strength I did not. “Please don’t let this happen.” Tears streamed down my face as I hugged
myself into a ball rocking back and forth and pleading this over and over. I felt an unexplained peace in my heart that
it would not happen, but could not quit pleading.
I heard the key in the door.
The Hero paused at the doorway. I
looked up. He had the most compassionate loving look on his face. He came over and took me in his arms, and
said “We are not doing this. I don’t want you to hate me. We can overcome the challenges.” My heart exploded with love for him, and I
thanked God that He had spared me and my child.
Years later, as a Public Health Nurse, I found myself across
a desk from many young women who were discussing having an abortion. Most were acting on the advice of friends,
and many did not have a faith to fall back on.
My advice to them was to talk with their parents or ministers who cared
about them and their well being. I told
them not to rely on people who had no investment in them or their future. I don’t know how many listened, but I tried,
because I had knowledge of what that choice meant.
I know without a doubt, had my sweet, beautiful daughter not
been born, our family would not have been.
The Hero would not have made the step to find Christ back in his life,
and I would not have survived. Such a
thin thread, but so very strong. I
continue daily to Thank God for his tender mercies and his being mindful of my
needs.
I am not sure why the urgency to write this came tonight,
but I hope if someone who might be thinking of having an abortion reads this,
it will help. You may not want a child,
but that child is wanted by others who, for reasons beyond their control, may
not be able to have a child. I
personally wanted my funny face and love her deeply and for always.
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